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Maryam :D


try to make me frown,baby, because you actually can't. half past 18. do i really have a clear view on my future?
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Monday, May 24, 2010 10:27 PM
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Ctrl+z
The world is changing us
slowly to the place we will not look back, guiding us through the haze

Bad breath

Political issues, financial issues, statuses and priorities, relationships and families.

The connection is strong. The world is still the as the way it is, the way God created it.
But what changes us are the issues mentioned above.



so tell me how many people within your circle been changing to something productive and better?
I could answer back, theres none.


I could really use a wish right now.
Yes, a time machine. If it does exist, show me the way.
Draw me a map, and I'll start an adventure which involve me and nobody else.

But as long as you can still live and cherish each day you've spent on earth, you should never regret the way I do because yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift.

Keep moving on, people! :)




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7:39 PM
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Muhd Luqman AbdulRasyid bin Rafiee,


Praying for a change.


:)
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Sunday, May 23, 2010 11:43 AM
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Noted,

Photo by Raja Zakiyy.


I'm running out of words.

Date to remember : 21st May 2010.
The end of alpha/foundation year.

Looking back, I've realized how much I've changed.
I've changed into a person who I don't want to be.
I've also transformed into something good.

I've done things which I thought I couldn't.

I've known a lot of good friends. Gained and lost, thats just the only problem.
I've break free.
Lose insanity.
Homesick.

Above all, I'm still me.



Knock, knock.
I'm home :)



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Thursday, May 20, 2010 1:29 AM
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All the J's
Jesse Jason Jay Justin Jack John Jamie anymore J's ?


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Monday, May 17, 2010 10:46 PM
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Disconnected.

You're holding grudge, and its not healthy.
Forgetting what we used to be, ignorance.
Its not a bliss anymore. It became a rival.
Ugly, ugly, ugly. Have you seen it?
What happened to them?




My kind of man? Relationship I wish I'm having?
I like man who opens up about himself.
A man who keeps me updated with what's been going on mentally.
No not really physical. But its still necessary, heheh :)
A man who can argue about things, current issue.
From entertainment, news and even sports.
Just like mom and dad :')
Its okay if we have different interest, that would spice up things more :D
A man who'll let me watch football with, in front of tv at home.
Which I maybe would end up sleeping on his lap in the end, or cheering 'GOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL!' , and its okay both ways for him.
The one that would like to study with me, motivate each other.
Who would take a walk with me. Anytime, anywhere.
He remembers every single details about me. Not just the one I've told him, but the thing I've never mentioned too.
I'm wishing you're here...
:)


Any questions? spill,


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1:48 PM
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Odd.
Dear Nabihan Nordin,
cut the "dear diary,"!
Its annoying -.-'


Bbyee :D

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Sunday, May 16, 2010 11:22 PM
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170507

3 Years back


17th May 2007.

Dear diary,
today was a special day.
A very special day.
Its official :)
Out of the blue, he texted me a secret number
A code.
Huda cracked that for me.
I forgot the numbers :(
Translated, it was....
Something I've always wanted
That made me smile all day long
A dream, I thought I wouldn't have a chance
I'm head over heels.
Overjoyed.
I believe in dreams now.
He fulfilled it in for me.
I can't help but say, I do.
I do. I would love to and YES.
He called me for the first time.
OHHH JUST BY HEARING HIS VOICE,
everything goes Topsy-turvy but in a perfect way.
I LOVE HIM, thats all that matters.

Till then, diary.



2nd October 2009

26th October 2009
16th May 2010

History of you and me.
We've been in a relationship for 3years now.
Exchanging those three words everyday.
Even though its not the same now,
a part of us is not that strong like the way it used to be
c-o-m-p-l-i-c-a-t-e-d is the right word to describe this relationship,
but baby, please let me say this,
Happy 3rd Anniversary, Muhd Luqman AbdulRasyid bin Rafiee.
I hope we'll get older, in the same house that you'll build.
I'll colour your life, I'll make sure that grief would be the last thing you'll experience.
Even though I'm such a pain in the ass, I do act like one. HAHAHA :D
but I'll make sure I'll fill the glass for you.
Whats in store for us?
Happiness, InsyaAllah. :)


I love you.







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12:48 PM
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I Won't Be Long,Trust Me,



Maryam, 18 plus, A dreamer.
Dreams I had last night,

Check-check one.
I was so bloody tired.
I laid my head on his hands. He pushed his hands away.
So I laid my my head oh his beg. He grab my head again, putting it on his chest.
He played with my hair. Strumming through it. One thing led to another. It was intimate.


Check one-two
I came to his campus. I went to his room, for real -.-'
met anas there. They were busy tweeting and doing assignments
We went out. Me, luqman, anas and qila.
I put my head on his lap. He kissed my forehead
The guard have seen us, we were escaping from him
Met syema too, she asked me about mom,
I couldn't answer. Stammered.
Met mom, coincidently.
Hugged mom. :')



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Saturday, May 15, 2010 11:57 PM
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I'm Just Completely Incomplete

Photobucket


3 Years Back

16th May 2007
Teacher's Day

Dear Diary,
He looked so handsome today.
You should know how jealous I am when a girl admit she's texting him.
You should see my face when I saw he snapped the picture of that cute dancer.
He shouldn't have to take a peek on me because I felt for it.
Honestly, I don't know what to do.
It's confusing. To not being able to understand how he feels about me.
Are we sharing the same feeling? Because honestly, I'm stuck.
He's contagious.
I like him, I do like him.
But does he likes me too?
He left me in wonder
The way he teases me, the way he looks at me, and the way he talks to me...
Its just special.
But could it be he does that to another girl?
Or to every girls?
I don't know. I'm just confused.
Can't wait to see him again.

Till then, diary.


Buhbye.



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12:18 PM
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Fool Me, Fool Me.



I'm letting it go. Loosen up.


To think of it, its true.
I'm too young to think of these problems.
I'm only 19 for God's sake!
Chill :)
Its too early.

Uh, good bye.
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12:13 PM
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Watch Me Bleed.


I've always have a thing for country love. Adore the colour effects.


JEALOUSY.
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Friday, May 14, 2010 11:40 PM
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Wrap Me Around Your Arms.
WARMTH

Explain these feelings I'm feeling
I'm playing my own game and I'm trapped
I wish I was her
I feel her existence in my own reflection
I like her in any ways
Does she deserves you?

If I go away, If I wouldn't be able to be there
will you miss me?
will you seek me?

3years in almost another 2 days
Can you just appear out of no where with roses and hugs?
Because I seriously do need plenty of it
I need that flame again
I need to feel that you're here

Bbyee.
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10:36 PM
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That Big Hearts
NAK!
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3:17 AM
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Stagnant
There are so many things been bugging me currently.
One of it is that I'm hungry.
And the fact that I have no more assignments left and I can't really think straight.
The fact that I'm super upset, and who I've been to you.
on how miserably I've treated you.
on how you treat me back.
on the fact that I love seeing you sleeping in front of the webcam but the laptop is lagging.
and you name it.

WEIRD.
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Wednesday, May 12, 2010 8:04 PM
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Its A Wrap?
Design Fundamentals THREE is officially over peeps!
:)




The poster I've made for Design Fundamentals' final assignment.
"Next to the wound what women make best is the bandage" - Jules Barbey D' Aurevilly.



Beloved Popsicle Lamp :')


One more assignment to go and there's no more coursework.

Exam is on 17th May :D until 21st May.
Then, its going to be the end of foundation studies, people.
Its been One year. One short year.
One down, three to go.




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Monday, May 10, 2010 8:28 PM
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Bliss,
see-eh-milling non stop, :D

good day, people, good day.
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4:46 AM
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Happy holidays, L.




His mom.


happy mother's day to all moms.
but yeah, as Nia mentioned, everyday is mothers day.
Tengku Asiah, no matter what happens, stay strong. You've gone through a lot, remember?
Sorry, I couldn't be there when you're in need.
I wish I was. Mom, you know that I prefer doing chores than being here kan?
:( I really want to help you.

I love you so much, mak.
And above all the people I miss( honestly,there's a lot), you're on top of the list.

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Sunday, May 9, 2010 4:12 PM
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I Was a *
4 years ago.


I'm so Jesse Mccartney, used to be. I remember crying hearing this song, and I wish whats in the past, stay in the past.
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3:25 AM
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I'm still out to get you.
Kenchanayo? Yes, everything is doing good.

Thanks to my best friend, L.Somehow, you're always there when I'm in need.
I've learnt a lot from you. I'm still going to learn a lot more from you.
What you've mentioned, its true somehow. I'm free from those unnecessary stress, because of you.
No matter how hurts it gets, you're still there, pushing me up and giving me strength.
I miss this, I miss the old us and I miss you.

You deserve this public confession, I love you.
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010 3:20 AM
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Fly, Free Bird.


Thank you for letting me feel like I do exist in your life and your imaginations, even for a while.


I'm on a boat.

I hope you won't come again

:D


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Monday, May 3, 2010 8:04 PM
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Thank you, yes you, you're being appreciated.
Haha thank you thank you for those who are friendly enough to say hey to me even though we're in tensed situation right now. Thank you for smiling and for making me smile. Thank you for thinking of me, at least. :P


:D Thats my room wey!
shoooh!
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4:29 AM
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Anas Shahir's.
Every guy is supposed to have gene for being cool, especially things around them. But what if we’re all that, and the thing we most need of repair is our ego?
Why is it so hard for me to admit defeat and just pull out my white flags? Even with simple tasks, I was easily flummoxed and prune to self-mutilation. I really do want to be sweet kind of guy, who can always cheer their partner. A guy should be nice, more understanding and sweet. But time and time again I have proved that im not that guy. I can build disaster in a second but I can’t built happiness and joy in a second. And it is so much worst when im around this so called MacGyver but I don’t even learn a thing from them. I can say Azman, Luqman , Azeer and Sifu(bet jaja smiling now) are the man who I will ever envy because they know how to cheer their partner.

Yaaaa, the man who smile like Mr. McDonals. He can control himself. There is one time, Maryam was mad at luqman. I was with them. Then we stop at this one store called “More And Save”. By the time I get back to them. WALLLAH! Maryam was smiling and her face shows that she is in a comfort zone. Seriously I am stunned by that time.


I didn't know you were stunned, Anas. Thanks, haha you do have a lot more qualities, more than you could ever expected. There must be something about you and qila would probably agree with me :P
Thank you, again :)
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Sunday, May 2, 2010 7:02 PM
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come again another day.
Dear Friend,

thank you,
for giving me enough support,
for making my days,
for making me laugh,
for being there for me when I need it,
for your ideas,
for telling me the truth,
for letting me do crazy things with you,
for giving me what I've wanted,
for the surprise birthday party,
for waking me up,
for being at my door before class every morning,
for those countless laughs we had together,
for hearing my silly jokes,
for not making any irritating gestures around me,
for correcting my grammar mistakes,
for hugging me,
for missing me,
for the deep conversations we shared,
for not being angry with every mistakes I've made,
for forgiving my mistakes,
for being with me, thick or thin,
for loving me,
for everything.........
Thanks, again.


M ;)
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6:34 PM
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These words are never enough.
Dear Friend,

for what I've ever been to you,
for those words I've never been able to speak,
for not being there with you,
for not being able to tell you the truth,
for being jealous,
for not spending most of my times with you,
for not supporting you from back,
for not agreeing with your words,
for not replying your messages, your smiles,
for not getting your jokes,
for being so noisy,
for being so annoying,
for being so spoil,
for not being so strong to protect you,
for falling sick,
for not lending a shoulder when you need it,
for not giving you enough warmth,
for being lazy,
for not being cooperative,
for being so stubborn,
for ignoring you,
for not giving you enough love,
for everything......
I'm sorry.



Love,
M.
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6:14 PM
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This is odd.
Dear L,

I miss you and nothing more.


M.
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5:44 PM
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I'm not here to get you anymore.
Honestly, I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of being portrayed as good, naive, kind, and supportive.
People tend to run through me, they would care less as if I don't have any feelings. However, I'm forgetful, once you're forgiven, yes you are. There's no point of holding grudges and whatsoever not.

Lay back with me, baby. :)
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5:12 PM
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You were right about her, and you still are.
Somewhere only we know.


Alien : Hey babe!

The Girl Who Was Put To Test : Hey!! ♥♥♥♥♥

Alien : I have something to tell you.

The Girl Who Was Put To Test : Spill ;)

Alien : Sorry, you failed the test.

The Girl Who Was Put To Test : Ouh thats too bad. But its okay, there's always another time. :D

Alien : I'm really am sorry. See you soon.

The Girl Who Was Put To Test : Bbyee.


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Saturday, May 1, 2010 9:38 PM
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A Reply.
You don't have to scream , you don't have to curse. No worries, I'm right here with you.


1079 days :)
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9:07 AM
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Stay ay? :)

Call it love, call it pain but you're still on my mind, LMH.


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2:21 AM
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Hey Mickey! -Mastura Muhamad ♥

Before I start, Congratulations,Meme! and Good luck. Its a good place to be at. Enjoy! Sorry it took a long time for me to do this. :p
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.


2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.


3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!


4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
As long as you love me- BSB
:)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Innocence - Avril Lavigne

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
You Are The Music In Me-HSM.
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Fall To Peices-Avril Lavigne (ape ni, negative la)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Over Thinking (Acoustic)-Relient K

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Untitled- Simple Plan
Perfect! :D
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Beat Of My Heart-Hilary Duff (Yes they are!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Someday, Someway- S Club 7

WHAT IS 2+2?
Tonight-Westlife ( Is this song even exist in my playlist?)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Kiss Yourself Goodbye- The All-American Rejects (OMG)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Because you loved me-Celine Dion

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Check on it -Beyonce

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I Need You- Relient K

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
See Ya- Atomic Kitten

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU
Dancing With Myself (Mean Girls soundtrack)-The Donnas

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Pick U Up - Adam Lambert

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Rain -Breaking Benjamin

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
My Girlfriend - Relient K

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Telephone -Lady Gaga

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Wake me up when September ends- Green Day

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Halfway Gone -Lifehouse (Huh :( ? )

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST REGRET?
Megalomania -Muse (Wow what that was supposed to mean?)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Mean - Pink

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Permataku-Mirwana

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Push The Button-Sugarbabes
(Great, you just have to push the button)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Can't Get You Out Of My Head- Kylie Minogue

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Keep Getting Better- Christina Aguilera
Haha sounds like the number been increasing, right? :P
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Bad News -Orianthi (Bingo!)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Trouble Is A Friend -Lenka

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
hey mickey! - Spice Girls
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1:39 AM
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Can't Find The Expiry Date?


there's no expiry date :)
I love you.
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